Billie Lourd Shares Heartbreaking Tribute to Mom Carrie Fisher on Her 70th Birthday: ‘I Woke Up Feeling Really Angry’

Jack SmartWed, October 21, 2026 at 6:36 PM UTC

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Carrie Fisher and Billie Lourd in 2016Credit: Zak Hussein - Corbis/Corbis via Getty -

Billie Lourd posted to Instagram a tribute to her late mom Carrie Fisher

Fisher, who died in 2016, would have turned 70 on Oct. 21

“Birthdays are harder than grief anniversaries for me because it’s a day that’s supposed to be a happy day,” wrote Lourd in her caption

Billie Lourd is honoring her mother Carrie Fisher on a particularly special day.

Wednesday, Oct. 21 marks 70 years since the birth of Fisher, who died in December 2016 at age 60. Lourd, 34, posted to Instagram a throwback shot of her celebrating with the late Star Wars star.

“Today would have been my Momby’s 70th birthday,” wrote the actress. “Which feels way too young an age to be dead for almost 10 years. She should have been alive for at least 10 more years - not dead for 10.”

Carrie Fisher and Billie LourdCredit: Billie Lourd/Instagram

She continued: “The last birthday I got to celebrate with her was her 60th. I wish I would’ve known it was her last but you never know a last is a last. Birthdays are harder than grief anniversaries for me because it’s a day that’s supposed to be a happy day. And it’s hard to feel the happy in happy birthday when the person whose birthday it is isn’t there to celebrate.”

Fisher’s death was caused by sleep apnea, atherosclerotic heart disease and drug use, according to her toxicology report.

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Lourd wrote that today she “woke up feeling really angry that she wasn’t able to get sober so she could be here with us to receive the happy in happy birthday. This is my 10th birthday having to celebrate her without her and that feeling is unfortunately always present. So I try to give myself space to let that anger sit for a moment, then I tell it to scoot over so I can let in the many other feelings I will inevitably feel on this day.”

Carrie Fisher and Billie Lourd attend the Premiere of “Star Wars: The Force Awakens” on December 14, 2015 in Hollywood, California.Credit: Todd Williamson/Getty

She added, “Being with my momby when she was at her best felt like home. A warm hug you never want to pull away from. What I imagine it feels like to be in a mother kangaroo’s pouch.”

Lourd concluded her tribute by addressing her followers. “Happy 70th Momby. I love you forever,” she wrote. “Thinking about anyone else who has lost someone they loved to drug addiction or anyone who has lost someone they had a multifaceted relationship with. May you allow all of the emotional guests to attend the emotional party - anger, sadness, frustration, joy, numbness, warmth, (insert emotion here). You are not alone.”

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Lourd and Austen Rydell, her husband since 2022, share two children. The actress’ screen credits this year include The Pirate King, Love Language, The Deputy, Artificial (in theaters Dec. 25) and the Netflix anthology series Monster: The Lizzie Borden Story.

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